Saturday, July 26, 2008

It's not what you choose, it's that you choose

First of all, I recommend the lectures by Ken Wapnick. They really cast light on the Course. I buy them as MP3 CDs, and make them into audiobooks for my iPod and iTunes with Audiobook Builder (Mac only, but there must be a Windows equivalent) (if not, it also works to just drag the files into iTunes. Makes many more "song" files though).

You can get the lectures here. If you want to use iTunes/iPod, get the MP3 versions, you save much conversion work.

I am currently listening to the lecture set Rules For Decision. A wonderful point Ken brings out is that getting yourself to a point where you are aware that you are constantly making a choice between the Ego and the Higher Self is much more important than which one you choose!

If you think you have to choose the HS every time (never get upset etc), you will have a lot of frustration and guilt, because you can't. And it doesn't matter. Just the fact that you are aware that you are choosing, no matter which side, will do it. Because it will eventually become very evident to you which side works best, and the rest will happen automatically.

Ken stressed this as hugely important.


mariaan said...

Really good point! And thanks for that link.

I have begun to find that eventually, choosing the ego results in almost immediate pain, and vice versa. So you begin to get this great instant feedback that is extremely convincing! There's no "trying to be good" involved. When you look at the trying-to-be-good thing it becomes very complex and tangled.

The ego simply hurts. The pain of it can be very subtle, or quite obvious. So sometimes the presence of that subtle suffering clues you in to where you are standing--or whose hand you are holding.

What IS involved is a more and more vigilant state of listening within, pausing before speaking, looking at your inner dialogue, your current mental state, and making sure you are mindful. Because, really, you don't know what the right decision or answer IS. But its essence is always harmless. The form is really up for grabs.

eolake said...

[Which of the links?]

"When you look at the trying-to-be-good thing it becomes very complex and tangled."

No kidding!
"Being good" is a totally different thing in Copenhagen than it is in Beirut.